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Aug 29

hilarioushilary:

Exactly a year ago from right now, I had to kick your grandparents and aunts and uncles out of my hospital room so they can get some sleep. Less than two hours later, you came into my world and left me all at the same time. I can’t believe it’s already been a year since you’ve been gone. I miss you so much and I never stop thinking about you. I miss your 6 AM wake up punches, your tendency to sleep on my bladder so that I can’t sleep, your movement whenever you hear your dad talking to you, and most of all, your heartbeat. Even though you’re not physically here for me to hold and kiss everyday, I know you’re watching over me. I sometimes feel your warmth surrounding me even during the darkest of times. Your dad and I were so happy when we found out we were expecting a little Mochi ball in our lives. Now, you’ve even made your dad want a girl again! Here’s a little recap on your short time with us here on earth. The day your dad and I found out we were expecting to my last belly bump picture and video of your always active (and hard) kicks. I swear you were the most perfect thing ever. From your long lanky arms to your big ass feet (obviously from your father) to your perfect nose (that you got from me, thank god!) I can’t wait until we meet again sweetheart, but for now I wish you a very happy 1st birthday 👼👪🙏 💖👣#RIP #HarperGraceBarton #mypersonalguardianangel #myperfectbabygirl @timdbarton

A year has passed? That’s crazy. Well I never got to meet her, but I loved her all the same. The idea of her, the plans her mom and I made.
I was all ready to be your favorite bad influence (keeding) aunty. Technically we raved together and will always rave together. You’ll always be in my thoughts. I can’t even explain the toll you have on my life. Like I truly don’t understand how I can love you so much. Your mommy and I have a very unique relationship. She is honestly one of my best friends not because we have everything in common but more because she gets me like on another level. You see we can sit together in silence for hours and feel satisfied just by being in eachothers presence. She is one of my biggest influences because she is true to herself, whether it’s her fashion, her make up, her work outs, her meals, her attitude, she is still very much her own person doing things her way. & I absolutely love that about her. She has adventures like impulse tattoos and piercings and hair color changes and shopping sprees, but she does things with limitation at the same time. I know for a fact that you would have been in great hands having Hilary Vo as a mom and having her perfect counter part Tim Barton as a father.
When you were announced in their lives I was going thru a rough spot in mine and Hilary was the only person who made me feel like me. She took me in, she made me focus on myself, she was a great role model for me to shape my actions after. When you came along and thing had to change in her life it meant things had to change in my life and at times it was hard for me to realize how one being can effect so many people when that being was still inside another. But I, none the less was so affected by you. From seeing your mom less bc you made her sleepy. Giving up things like hookah and alcohol bc that wasn’t safe for you. And limiting my use bc it wasn’t fun without your mom. But also giving us tons. All the pictures of room decor, baby outfits, and baby showers and 1st birthday ideas. We had endless talks and I knew when I had to move away that every time I came back your mom would be growing which meant I was one day closer to meeting you.
But I was out eating with my friends just over a year ago when I got the call.
And I just talked to your mom on the phone and we texted for hours I wanted to be that friend who said the right words and made everything ok. I couldn’t do that. We were mad like really mad. And then we were sad. And then we were numb. But I somewhere deep down I knew you were in a better place. I still have to convince myself that because I selfishly wish you were here with us and every time I could come home to a beautiful baby girl who be a year old today and you would know me just barley bc I’m always back and forth. But I would know you. I would look at your pics and hear all about your special moments and I would love you from a far everyday.
I’m sorry I can’t be more positive, but I still wish you were here.
I love you so much little angel.
Thank you for all the ways you have impacted my life.
Rest in paradise Harper Grace.

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